“Stop thinking about the past, and don’t worry too much about what’s going to happen in the future. Your presence is a present, so live for today, and appreciate everyone and everything you have. Stop thinking about what you don’t have, what you wish you had, who walked out of your life, and whatever else that falls in that category. Think about what you have, who you have in your life, and how fortunate you are.”
– Junethea Crystal Centeno
A Mrs. Colleen Brown over at The Chatter Blog recently blogged about what she is thankful for, in a post entitled Merry Christmas To Me. While I posted about a few things I am thankful for around Thanksgiving, I felt it was time to post about those kinds of things again, especially because those things are exactly what I am struggling to keep focus on at the moment.
I had a consultation with a therapist last night and it was better than I expected. Joe drove me there – he is so supportive and I am so thankful – and dropped me off in front of the building, in a tiny, rich, beautiful neighborhood about 40 minutes from our house. Christmas lights were strung from every quaint shop and the weather was abnormally warm.
She greeted me donning a sequined Christmas sweater and I immediately smiled as she lead me into a soothing room where a Yankee candle was lit (French Vanilla; I felt the need to look).
I felt comfortable enough to immediately spill my heart out and even shed a few tears. This is good. I told her I have been blogging about my issue, and she praised me for it. I received homework which included doing one thing each day that makes me happy. There was a list, with spaces to add my own ideas. I took an idea today that was already on it: Light a candle.
I unwrapped and lit a new candle Joe and I bought last week. It’s called something like “Log Cabin”, and really does remind me of the woods. I checked it off. Tomorrow I may check off “Take a bubble bath”. I haven’t taken one of those in quite a few years.
I already have plans to see her again. Even a consultation proved helpful.
I am feeling very, very calm – and happy – at the moment. 🙂
Anyway, to the true inspiration behind today’s blog: Why I will have a very merry Christmas this year:
1) I am loved by a wonderful man.
2) I am loved by my parents and a group of close friends.
3) I can pull off a short haircut.
4) I am creative.
5) I have a pretty decent singing voice.
6) I am strange and Joe doesn’t mind.
7) I’m a little bit crazy and Joe doesn’t mind.
8) I am healthy.
9) I may not be rich, but I’m not poor.
10) I am sitting in front of the television, drinking red wine and watching HGTV.
11) I have lost a lot of weight, with the aid of nothing but exercise and my own will power.
12) I love to blog; I love reading the blogs of others.
13) B101 and 98.1 have provided me with unlimited Christmas music on all my lonely drives around town.
14) Singing at the top of my lungs while driving has really been making me feel better lately.
15) My income has raised significantly since switching jobs and that makes me very, very happy.
16) My Christmas shopping was done days ago.
17) Joe’s parents (who live in Florida) will be arriving this Saturday morning; we haven’t seen them since last Christmas.
18) There is a light at the end of every tunnel. I know this.
19) Christmas morning will consist of Bloody Marys.
20) Christmas morning is when I get to give Joe all of his presents.
I am fortunate.
For a moment, I’ve come unglued. But I’m slowly becoming reattached.
Happy, Happy Holidays.