mother folds the rug back
while father sweeps
mother stirs the pot
while father fixates
on a crack in the ceiling
anything but the way
my shoulders jackhammer
while i am begging him
in some devastated tongue
to see me in some light, any light
they say a mother’s love knows no bounds
but what happens when your own mother
is so broken she cannot lift a hand
to see the way it looks so much like your own?
i am screaming with my mouth shut
and i’ve run out of bandages
to keep my bones from breaking
in one fragile swoop like some cheap trinket
i am grasping at straws made of sand
they turn to dust in my grasp
like this mirage that tries to
tell me i have a family
i kneel behind my son in damp grass
wrap both hands around his waist
point at whatever wonder the day is bringing
and i think: i’ve done this, haven’t i?
i’ve been on the other side of this
hands around my waist, so small
somewhere in the fog of another life.