I am stuck standing in the
mud of a time where words got
knotted together because there was no
lack of voices in our home, just the constant
knocking of chatter against the windows and the
walls of weather, what’s-for-dinner
but all of it was like the tiniest of earthquakes in
my chest, that old reliable constant
loud or barely heard it was there,
the warmest grip on my bones in the
bluish hue of the television
but now
I am knocking on the walls and
holding my breath to hear if my
memories come pounding back, and setting a
table for a solitary two is only romantic
sometimes because there is a catch,
when you are exchanging
expired stories over breakfast eventually
they all run out and the silence comes,
that deafening reminder to turn up
the heat, turn up the radio, anything to
take the edge off